need a boyfriend/girlfriend in order to fit in, yet don’t judge a friend or even an adult leader at church for being single. Female teenagers feel like they have to be thin in order to fit in, and male teenagers feel like they need to be built. So I ask them, “I’m an unmarried, hefty adult. Am I worthy of love?” They assure me that I am. So I ask, “Why do you hold yourself to a standard that you don’t hold me to?” They usually take a while to chew on that before humbling. Later, when I think and pray over these conversations, the irony hits me: In my ministry, I hold myself to standards that I don’t hold other youth ministers to. Here are a few:
- I expect my ministry to grow exponentially, but when another church doesn’t grow or it even loses members, I don’t think twice. I spend nights crying over lost students in my church, but not over others.
- I force myself to read tons and tons of books or write tons and tons of blogs, but don’t think that others need to do this. Educationally, I hold myself to a different standard.
- I expect all of my students to read their Bibles daily, pray, and have real relationships with Jesus.
- I wish for my next church to be a huge church, or to become the next Josh Griffin, or to become famous in the youth ministry world (don’t lie, you want this too). But obviously everyone can’t be famous, obviously there’s a need for small-church youth pastors, and obviously I’m not as cool as Josh Griffin.
- Personally, I push myself further because I am a female, and I feel like I need to somehow be “better” than the males in my field, to somehow “prove” myself.
- I set the standard that it is my responsibility alone to do these things. With this expectation, I miss out on what my volunteers are able of doing, but more importantly forget about the work that is necessary for parents to do.