For a very long time, I’ve struggled with the sense of Inadequacy. An unfortunate part of my background is that much of this sense of inadequacy has come from outside voices pointing out flaws that make me inadequate in their eyes to do what God has called me to do. I know I’m not alone in that truth.
But there are things from within that often times make me feel completely unqualified for what the Lord has me doing.
I consider myself fortunate to have never gotten involved with drugs of any sort, and I don’t view this is something that makes me unqualified. I say this, though, because at times, mainly when talking to one of the many students I work with who are heavy into drugs, I feel completely out of touch with what they are going through and dealing with. I have nothing to go off of.
Things like that bother me, and I know they shouldn’t.
But something that bothers me deeper is this notion that comes from the quote I used as the title of this post. It seems like this quote could probably be found in 90% of Youth Ministry books. It’s easy to grow a Youth Group numerically, just throw a party.
I wrestle, however, with the idea that even if I spend countless hours and an unhealthy amount of energy planning an amazing event to bring in a crowd, I still end up with a crowd that leaves me scratching my head.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m one of the biggest people that believes numbers don’t make a Youth Ministry, and I would much rather have 10 die-hard Christian Disciples than 100 students who can’t find Genesis in the Bible.
But I also believe those 10 die-hard Christian Disciples should be able to bring in 100 students who can’t find Genesis in the Bible.
In our ministry, we went through a lot the 12 months before I got here that we are still dealing with, and are really focusing this year on stability, and getting back to “Normal.” I’m beyond blessed to have a Sr. Pastor and Board of Elders invested in building a sustainable ministry over the longterm, but I also have this voice in my head that says “If your not growing numerically, are you really ‘Succeeding’?”
So how about you? Would you say you can have a “successful” ministry without numerical growth?